Yes, I get jealous. I get that feeling when the heat rises to my face, when I want nothing more than to steal you away when you talk to another girl. I’m sorry. I try to hide it, I really do. I try to crush this jealousy, but sometimes it’s not enough. I know it’s crazy, but I want to be the only girl you see. Yes that means cutting you off from noticing another girls’ beauty. I told you it was crazy. I know it’s almost impossible, but please try. It’s driving me insane. Next time you hug a girl make sure you think of me first. When a girl flirts with you, look at my face and you’ll know how I feel. Please at least try to make an effort. I will only try to destroy this jealousy if you promise to see my side of things. I can go up and hug all my guy friends. I can flirt with them; make them smile and laugh and want to hang out with me. I can do all that, but I don’t, because you are literally the only guy I notice. My love for you has turned me blind against noticing other boys, but I see it hasn’t done the same for you. So next time you check out a girl or flirt back, think about me. You said I was the only girl for you. So prove it.

We all have those days when we don’t quite fit right with our lover. We get easily irritated and start to notice things. We can become jealous and argumentative at the smallest words. Sometimes, like in my case, we set the bar too high; the one requiring them to prove how much they love us. We make it impossible for them to compare.

My boyfriend noticed this mood in me today. He has noticed that I’ve started to feel like he might not care as much for me anymore. So this is what he told me:

“I love you, and I want you to know that. If I’m being too serious, rash, let me know. I’m just a jokester, sometimes I take it too far. I love you alone, no other girl will change that.”

Maybe to others this is not enough, but for me, it is. I love him, he loves me, and that’s all that matters. Moods are phases that we go through when relationships get too smooth, but if you have a good thing, fight to keep it that way. Don’t throw it away too easily.

I know I won’t ever underestimate his love again.

I like this. Calm, easy. The cheerful time before you’re actually in a relationship with someone. Flirting in class, purposely going down a hallway just so he’ll see you. So simple, so sweet. Before feelings become a regular addition and jealousy breaks us down.